I wish I could say the same for myself. It's very strange. Things are going so well yet I feel paralyzed and it's really a horrible feeling. Although we have had low activity over the past few days I've been sleeping 10 hours per night and don't have energy to do much during the day.
I mentioned Jemma's breathing last week, and it is still bothering me a lot. When I sit close to her while reading I hear small sounds that send my mind back to last summer. Once my mind goes back a year, I have trouble returning to today. Worry and unhelpful thoughts keep turning over and over in my mind and I can't stop them from coming. I thought reading a bit on the internet would make me feel better, but it really makes me feel a lot worse. Ignorance is bliss. Some nights the thoughts keep me up and some days they keep me from being productive.
My logical brain knows this type of thought is not helpful to me or anyone else around me. So when I step back and think about it I know I need to change my behavior.
Friday and Saturday were horrible days for me, but yesterday and today weren't too bad. I think it's a matter of time. I've spent a year in emergency mode and dealing with the unfamiliar. Now that things have calmed down I need to readjust again.
Last week the doctor told me that this transition time is typically a very difficult time for parents and I completely agree.
This post is linked to:
A Mama's Story
The Better Mom